all your perfect imperfections

what would i do without your smart mouth?
drawing me in, and you kicking me out
you've got my head spinning, no kidding, i can't pin you down
what's going on in that beautiful mind
i'm on your magical mystery ride
and i'm so dizzy, don't know what hit me, but i'll be alright
my head's under water
but i'm breathing fine
you're crazy and i'm out of my mind
'cause all of me
loves all of you
love your curves and all your edges
all your perfect imperfections
give your all to me
i'll give my all to you
you're my end and my beginning
even when i lose i'm winning
'cause i give you all of me
and you give me all of you, ohoh
how many times do i have to tell you
even when you're crying you're beautiful too
the world is beating you down, i'm around through every mood
you're my downfall, you're my muse
my worst distraction, my rhythm and blues
i can't stop singing, it's ringing, in my head for you
my head's under water
but i'm breathing fine
you're crazy and i'm out of my mind
'cause all of me
loves all of you
love your curves and all your edges
all your perfect imperfections
give your all to me
i'll give my all to you
you're my end and my beginning
even when i lose i'm winning
'cause i give you all of me
and you give me all of you, ohoh
give me all of you
cards on the table, we're both showing hearts
risking it all, though it's hard
'cause all of me
loves all of you
love your curves and all your edges
all your perfect imperfections
give your all to me
i'll give my all to you
you're my end and my beginning
even when i lose i'm winning
'cause i give you all of me
and you give me all of you
i give you all of me
and you give me all of you, ohoh

fav hehe

term 3??

HI!!
hahahahaha it's been such long since i updated right hahahahaha.
but lazy not my fault right.
(it is)
(dumb)
so for holidays... i've been just lazying around, too lazy to care about life.. LOL
for the first two weeks of term 3, oral just took up 50% of my time.
NOW THAT ORAL'S OVER, i'm back!!! hahahahahahahaha. (nobody cares) (i know)
anyways, many things happened in just two weeks. idk hahaha just too many!!

friday, csm was awesome hehehe. idk why i was so happy during and after csm hahaha. ???)????? idk LOL.

saturday, which is yesterday, was such a long and busy busy day.

i had cca in the morning. after cca, i ate lunch and took a 10min nap (was super tired). then i went to bryan's hse for his birthday party. i left early to head to botanic gardens for junqi's concert.

then after the concert we got lost and stuck in the gardens for like 1 hrs. after so long i got back to bryan's hse and they were all waiting for me awww. like one gang of ppl came to fetch me AWWWWW. AHAHAHAA.

♥♥♥♥

hehehehe bye till the next time!!

하모니

이 세상 아무도 눈길 주지 않지만
오가는 발길에 채이고 밟히지만
내게도 꿈은 있죠 소망이 있죠
가슴에 아직
찾는 이 없고 이름조차 없지만
나는 믿어요 세상에 보내진 이유
아무쓸모도 없이 태어나는건 없죠
그래요 난 난 소중하죠
한 줌 햇볕도 한 줄 바람도
이렇게 날 위해 함께해
소담스런 꽃으로 고즈넉한 향기로
피어날 수 있도록
나는 할 수 있어요
꽃 피울수 있어요
이 아픔 지나면 언젠간
그 날을 믿기에 (그 날을 믿기에)
아직 꿈이 있기에
오늘이 아름답죠
힘겹던 시간 상처뿐인 지난 날
이젠 알아요
나에게 시련 준 이유
사랑하기 때문에 소중하기 때문에
강하게 날 날 만든거죠 (만든거죠)
아픈 눈물은 슬픈 기억은
때로는 이 삶에 거름과도 같죠
저마다의 몫으로 (저마다의 몫으로)
저마다의 의미로
살아갈 수 있도록
나는 할 수 있어요
꽃 피울수 있어요
이 아픔 지나면 언젠가
그날을 믿기에 아직 꿈이 있기에
오늘이 아름답죠
부디 내게 힘이 되어 주오
햇빛이여 바람이여
나보다 더 아픈 가슴 감쌀 수 있도록
세상 끝까지 찬란하게 반짝이는 (찬란하게 반짝이는)
따뜻한 사랑 (따뜻한 사랑) 나눌 수 있도록
나는 할 수 있어요
꽃 피울수 있어요
이 아픔 지나면 언젠가
그 날을 믿기에 아직 꿈이 있기에
오늘이 아름답죠
사랑하고 싶어요 이토록 소중한 내 삶
오늘은 비록 고달프지만
희망이 있다는 그것만으로도 내겐 (내겐)
충분히 감사하죠
충분히 행복하죠

:))))))))

rainrain go away

hi hahahahaha.
my mom left to korea.
home alone.
it's raining.
so quiet.
haiz.

same old shit.
many nights.
every night.

how long has it been. since the last time we were tgt. i miss family i miss korea. about time though, it's time. hahahahahah. 

but what can i do

time never waits for me

life just goes on without me

sad isn't it :(

in the middle of shit

yes i'm in the centre of a pile of shit HAHAHAHAHAH.
ok i'm very high now so i need to maintain abit.
so shit = exam. i'm in the midst of exams hahahaha. not funny? kay.
fine.
bye.
hi.
ok anywayssss.
same old exam period... but u know what. i enjoy studying though HAHA. but i hate memorising. get it. i hate humanities. i hate geog. the worst.

my boyf

mr. lum hoho 

AND ANGMORS YEST OMG.

add me on sc!! chaeyeon39 hehe.

KAY BYEEEE WHEEE

^^

hiiii

school has been getting tougher 

 there have been many many 'up's and 'down's. there was no time for me to be happy about the 'up's or be sad about the 'down's cause i was sooooo busy for the past few weeks!

i literally didn't revise for some of the class tests but well, they turned out well anyways LOL. now that seniors have stepped down, all the gift and surprise preparation is over, it's finally time to focus back on studies cause mid-year exams are coming. yet again. ewwwwwww.

god i have so many things to sayyyyy. whenever i blog, it feels like talking to old friends when i don't even have that old friends hahaha.

i'll just say whatever that comes to my mind la. haha.

#nowplaying teardrops on my guitar
#nowweather thunderstorm ((very cold))
#nowfeeling sleepy
#lame

okay. so er was it tuesday? it was such a bad day. i got damn low for my oral ((motivated to improve though)) and maths test ((although i totally yolo the paper)). and then because of these i was like already in a bad mood. then when i was "learning" how to open the class door from bryan, jeremy ran to the door and swung it open when i was right behind. I COULD HAVE DIED OR GOT BECOME STUPID OKAY. hahaha jk. but it was dam pain cause i bite my tongue. then i went to the toilet then all my emotions came out and i cried badly hahahaa.

and nowadays, i love band so much. like suddenly. especially my section. maybe it is because being drum major feels like an exciting journey so i'm excited. i'm not expecting a smooth journey but a fun one. -QUOTED BY ME HAHAHA (unless some idiot said it before me)

the day of announcement!!

(i miss cheryl, gina and amanda)

met up to prepare gifts!!

random and usual after band eating session

(gonna miss these random meetups)

what we did for them

why are the balloons out of the picture

i swear i took ages pasting all of them HAHA

when doing xingyi's present

finally meeting up as a whole with them and i really can't wait for tmr. I'VE BEEN MISSING THEM FOR AGES. they're like the heaven in my hell. i should be a poet man HAHAHA.

bye!!!!

term 2?

hi i'm on my phone again which means it'a gonna ba a pretty short post but HII.

today is april fools day but not like a april fools day lol. special occassions are getting more and more boring as i grow older. is it just me....

anyways term 2 life so far has been revolving around studies and new topics after topics, homework after homework, never-ending stuff to learn. (esp. physics. physics sucks so much i hate physics forever. :( )

lots of stress and disappointment about myself too hahaha. but i managed to get out of all this shit again. i mean nobody will help me get back up unless i do, myself. righttttt? (talking like some optimistic person but i'm not)

omg my brother just sneezed and scared me. i freaked out man. ok chill.

some photos from botanic gardens performance last saturdayyy. i have no excuse for posting two only cause i'm lazy :p

i'm gonna miss amanda, cheryl and gina so freaking much when they step down soon. u don't know how much i'm gonna miss them ok. what is band without them. sigh. my heart will like sink whenever i remember that they are leaving us already. just one more year with them will be so much better :(

/suddenly so sad mood/

hahahaha ok bye everybody and jiayou for whatever things u have!! :)

someday

언젠간 이 눈물이 멈추길
언젠간 이 어둠이 걷히고 
따스한 햇살이 이 눈물을 말려주길

지친 내 모습이 조금씩 지겨워지는 걸 느끼면
다 버리고 싶죠 힘들게 지켜오던 꿈을

가진 것보다는 부족한 것이 너무나도 많은 게
느껴질 때마다 다리에 힘이 풀려서 나 주저앉죠

언젠간 이 눈물이 멈추길
언젠간 이 어둠이 걷히고
따스한 햇살이 이 눈물을 말려주길

괜찮을 거라고 내 스스로를 위로하며 버티는
하루하루가 날 조금씩 두렵게 만들고

나를 믿으라고 말하면서도 믿지 못하는 나는
이제 얼마나 더 오래 버틸 수 있을 지 모르겠어요

기다리면 언젠간 오겠지
밤이 길어도 해는 뜨듯이
아픈 내 가슴도 언젠간 다 낫겠지

날 이젠 도와주길 하늘이 제발 도와주길
나 혼자서만 이겨내기가 점점 더 자신이 없어져요

언젠간 이 눈물이 멈추길
언젠간 이 어둠이 걷히고
따스한 햇살이 이 눈물을 말려주길

기다리면 언젠가 오겠지
밤이 길어도 해는 뜨듯이
이 아픈 내 가슴도 언젠간 다 낫겠지

언젠간
언젠간

march holidays!

okay hi people. a while since i blogged? tbh i have been contemplating (??) to actually delete this blog and stop blogging (cause it's time consuming) but NO. hahaha. i have 29 views yesterday and 9 today?? someone's stalking meeeeee. -smirks-

common tests have been pretty good. like i don't have any subjects veryyy badly done and neither do i have any veryyyyy well done HAHA. i didn't put in much effort this time round though, mainly because of snsd comeback but well.

listening to blue night radio hehe.

so the past weeks have basically been studying and revising la.

from 3A's secret admirer on my birthday :)

on friday, there was the school anniversary parade. it was very hot but i felt so proud of our UGs and band hehe. 

on saturday, which is yesterday, i had FALCONs interview in the morning which was fun too hahahaha. and then i went out with primary school friends to nex to 'celebrate' my birthday and ya.

then today. in the morning i went to do sports leader duty at anchorvale cc and it was funnnnn..

then i was slept and slacked and played my flute.

and then now i am blogging and watching show when i have homework to complete my tmr.. aiyo chaeyeon.

bye

MR. MR.

MRMR MV IS OUTT
that means one thing, let me spazz a little while hehe
if u aren't a kpop person then just skip it BUT HOW CAN U NOT LOVE SNSD U SUCK.

FIRSTLY, IF U HAVEN'T WATCHED IT PLS KINDLY GO TO YOUTUBE AND TYPE SMTOWN AND THE CHANNEL WILL HAVE THE MV.

okay basically the song is ya so-so. IT'S NICE BUT I EXPECTED MORE.

but their concept. their concept. is perrrrfect. especially the dance break udk how much i love the dance break /cries/ IDK OKAY WHY MUST THEY COMEBACK DURING COMMON TEST PERIOD. SM U SUCK AS USUAL.

and another thing, YURI'S FREAKING HAIR. it's so pretty and suits her so well.

IDK WHY SM IS TAKING ATTENTION AWAY FROM TAEYEON. maybe cause throughout the whole mv i was just searching for her but why why. but as usual, how can taeyeon not be flawless SHE'S PERFECTION.

LASTLY, IF U STILL HAVEN'T WATCHED THE MV U SUCKKKKK.

-enough of spazzing-

there is FALCONs interview this saturday and i'm so scared cause i suck at speaking well. and it is like scenario(how to spell)-based. i think i won't be selected though. like honestly i don't think so :x

and there are many many parade rehearsals to come. i wonder how am i even going to play under the hot sun in a blazer. i might just burn to death. dun dun dunnn. but i swear the uniform grps are damn cool. so uniform-ed and smart u know. does anyone feel me.

okay bye.

x4

common test soon

hii i'm using my phone to blog now before bathing. haven't bathed since i got home which is around 2hrs ago hehehehe. what a dirty fellow. i was under the sun for parade rehearsal but i'm lazy i can't help it :( #lieslieslies

yesterday kelly, peiqi, kaiting, suting and obviously i went to nex just to slack and chat and it was funnnn. #becausestudyingforcommontestistoomainstream #whatalonghashtag

i ate A LOT. hahahaha.

there are so many new couples around in school and outside school. or everyone seems to be like having someone special be it couple or anot. tbh i'm damn jealous lorh HAHA i'm just talented at pushing ppl away

common tests are coming and so is my birthday. i'm not excited for my birthday at all this year partly cause there's common test and partly cause i just feel sad today la idk. feel so lonely. not that kind of lonely but this kind of lonely. LOLOLOLOL.

haizzzzzzzzzzzzzz i need to talk to someone zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

FRIDAYYYYY

i just switched on my laptop to do a survey on asknlearn and i just had to blog today cause i'm so happy yay. 20mins before laptop dies. CHIONG TYPE.

starting off, i failed my physics test. boohoo. by a bit. but i'm gonna work hard JIAYOU CHAEYEON.

and then just now during cca or more like after cca my CCA major told 5 of us (( i think it was 5)) that we had potential and could go to FALCONS BRIEFING on friday?? hahahahha joke. i thought i was going to get scolded or something. anyways that is mainly why i'm happy. i'm not even one yet i'm so happy LOL.

moving onnnn. i learnt that i'm an girl eyecandy of someone today. SO FUNNY RIGHT. it is like so cool that there is someone out there who likes me from a girl's view. i think she is the first girl who likes me openly. what, why am i phrasing it so weirdly. NVM. but yay hehehehehe.

as u can see i'm very hyper at 9.12pm.

i'm going out to bugis tmr so i have to chiong homework and save sunday for revisions. which is impossible cause the pile of homework is.... sigh. burn midnight oil la.

bye everybodae and remember to stay happy!!

#SCHOOL

hi so long since i didn't blog cause well, school.

using phone to blog now and it is so uncomfortable cause i can't type as fast when using phone than when using laptop. ew.

anyways, i'm back from sec 3 leadership camp in koref and i swear. i swear. it was so awesome. it is damn fun and i actually hope it could be more challenging. if u are a junior reading this then pls really look forward to ur turn cause i dreaded mine and idk why.

EVERYTHING WAS SO FUN AND AHHH I WANT TO GO BACK TO LAST WEEK NOW. *pew*

wheee 3A ♡♡♡

ALRIGHT THIS WAY TO KOREF SUP SUP OI.

bring me back to koref pls T.T

i'm so scared of my physics results. i thought half of the class will fail or something but my teacher said that only 2 did and there's a high chance that i'm one of them. :( sigh. i'm so worried. how to wait till fridayyyy :(

oh and loki is kinda not with us anymore. just because my mom hates dogs if i ever mentioned. and ya i miss him a lot. :(

on the brighter side, my mom is back yay. and i'm meeting pri sch friendz this weekendz. i forgot saturdayz or sundayz. why amz i talking like thiz. okay stop it(z).

OH AND SM THE BALLAD. if any of u haven't listen to taeyeon and jonhyun's breath and taeyeon's set me free, exit is this way u my leave. ((so mean)) but go listen okay!!!

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

I'M BACK

hi. i'm finally back with an official (?) post because it's CHINESE NEW YEAR. dun dun dunnnnn.

lots of things have been happening since school started. guess u can see from my posts haha. but im fine, everyone goes through this shit anyway.

idk what to blog okay. like too many things until idk what to blog so.. FACTS ABOUT ME. hahahahha. some of them could be repeated from my deleted facts about me post (if u didn't read then nvm).

and i have smth exciting coming on monday too so yay.

showtime ep 9 now hehe. baekhyun is damn cute when he laughs okay.
although i'm not a big fan of exo but i have to admit their visuals are *-*
what do u expect from SM anyways

speaking of SM, when is snsd's comeback man ew.

OKAY BACK TO REAL TOPIC. facts facts facts.

 1) i'm kind of scared of heights.

 2) i like people who type with small letters. idk why but it matters quite a lot to me until it may vary whether i want to reply someone or not haha.

3) i can't cycle, roller blade, ice skate. hahaha sucks.

4) i get very easily attatched to people.

5) i like to plan stuff and clear stuff. basically being productive.

6) i love being alone or with just 1 or 2 friends. i esp love bus rides alone.

7) when it comes to parents, i tend to be weird?? idk. like movies or videos or stories about parents i will cry easily. but i don't cry often.

8) i think i have the best people i can ever have in my life. the best family and friends. just everyone. so blessed.

9) i love life the way it is now. i don't think it is perfect but i think attending sch is so much better than being out there alone to compete with everyone. idk why everyone just wants to grow up and get out of sch. i mean like when in ur whole life will u be under such protection from parents and teachers.

10) my ideal type is someone like woobin. actually not really but yeah. he is the most perfect human being i have ever seen. except he is not fit oops. WOOBIN SHOULD WORK OUT.

11) i really think taeyeon is.. idk. it feels like she understands me. idk she is a diamond in my life. HAHAHA. just jk. when she does something, i'm like i know why u did that i always do that too. HAHA #teampisces

12) tiffany is my no.1 role model aka perfect piece of human. she is... ugh idk how to feel about her TT

13) i like strawberry ice cream and milk.

14) i hate chocolate stuff? chocolate flavoured stuff like ice cream or cake. but i love chocolate. it's weird.

15) the slightest things can brighten up my mood or ruin my day. well this applies to everyone. DUHH.

16) i don't have a favourite colour but recently i'm crazy over yellow. idk if it is just an obsession (i always have obsessions). i used to like yellow last time too. haha. speaking of yellow, i saw this super big duck soft toy from hong kong on carousell at freaking $6.80!! i'm not the type who like soft toys in fact i kind of hate them but that holy duck is so cute and fluffy. JUST LOOK AT THAT QUACK QUACK. 

17) i'm very forgetful. very very. i always write down the slightest things like finding smth into my phone or handbook to remind myself because in my brain, not recorded = forget = gg.com

18) i hate immature boys and fake girls. #majorturnoff

19) i like charismatic boys and confident girls. #majorturnon HAHA.

20) i have this craze over policemen. sounds weird but i love the policemen uniform and i will fangirl over NPCC or those guards (?) in train stations. sounds like a pedo. ((attempted to find a cute police man pic but failed))


21) i take very very long to get ready in the morning. my standard time taken to get ready for school is 1 hour. zai hor HAHA.

22) i hate reading words. idk why. like on twitter then got emo emo stuff i'll get pissed off just by looking at the words. (i know my grammar is suckish here but BLAH)

23) i can't wait for summer. all the youtubers now are doing videos on winter clothes cause well, their season now is winter going to spring. okay at least spring i'll be able to get some inspirations.

24) my fav youtubers are bethany (macbarbie07) and amanda (makeupbymandy24).

 

25) i'm a korean, in case u didn't know. cause a lot of people don't HAHA.

26) i love japanese culture and food and the people. gahhh

27) i'm not scared of insects. unless they are huge. i kill them for my brothers LOL.

28) but i hate squishy stuff like lizards and worms. ew omg can someone make me stop visualising these monsters in my head now.

29) i can't shop for long. i have to sit down. when i go out shopping with my friends i will constantly ask if we could take a break and stuff like that. but i shop A LOT online. basically 24hrs. yay.

30) yay 30 30. thank u for reading and i love uuuuu.

BYE. will probably update SOON cause it's CNY. DUN DUN DUNNNN.

return

..

title very emo liao hor.

idk where to type my thoughts down. i do have lots of places to write my feelings down but i want myself to read this next time so - blog.
i'll probably cry again while typing this sighz. and will probably delete this post after some time.

i miss my parents badly. i know i always say this and most of u probably can't feel me because most of y'all have parents with u.

i was just browsing through my pictures in my gallery and i came across a picture i took of my mom washing dishes. and it just striked me that it's been so long since i saw her that i forgot how her fingers looked like, how her hair felt like and how it felt like to be with her.

and then i went to bathe and all the thoughts just came back to me. just all rushed to me and i silent-cried. idk.

how she came all the way to s'pore to take care of us. and how lonely she would be here. and how left out she will be with all her friends in korea. she has her own life, not as a mom and not as a wife. and yet she is spending her life just supporting us.

and i rmb-ed how she would stay up with me till 2+am just to be there for me when studying for eoy. then when i cried out of frustration, she just came silently and told me it's okay. how she would always listen to me and hug me whenever i tell her about everything in sch. how she would try to be happy and cheerful every morning. how she would wait for me to be back from school. how lonely would she have felt all alone at home, with nobody.

obviously she would feel happier in korea now. a part of me wants her to be back here but a part of me is telling myself to be mature and try to sacrifice urself. the first part should be my heart and the second part should be my brain.

there are so many things i want to thank and apologise to her but. idk. i can't. i suck.

but i always know that there are always ppl more unfortunate than me. i rmb i learn the what phrase during chinese lesson. forgot la whatever.

anyways, stay happy guys. being happy ia about u and not the ppl around u. live life and enjoy life. ^^

byez.