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title very emo liao hor.

idk where to type my thoughts down. i do have lots of places to write my feelings down but i want myself to read this next time so - blog.
i'll probably cry again while typing this sighz. and will probably delete this post after some time.

i miss my parents badly. i know i always say this and most of u probably can't feel me because most of y'all have parents with u.

i was just browsing through my pictures in my gallery and i came across a picture i took of my mom washing dishes. and it just striked me that it's been so long since i saw her that i forgot how her fingers looked like, how her hair felt like and how it felt like to be with her.

and then i went to bathe and all the thoughts just came back to me. just all rushed to me and i silent-cried. idk.

how she came all the way to s'pore to take care of us. and how lonely she would be here. and how left out she will be with all her friends in korea. she has her own life, not as a mom and not as a wife. and yet she is spending her life just supporting us.

and i rmb-ed how she would stay up with me till 2+am just to be there for me when studying for eoy. then when i cried out of frustration, she just came silently and told me it's okay. how she would always listen to me and hug me whenever i tell her about everything in sch. how she would try to be happy and cheerful every morning. how she would wait for me to be back from school. how lonely would she have felt all alone at home, with nobody.

obviously she would feel happier in korea now. a part of me wants her to be back here but a part of me is telling myself to be mature and try to sacrifice urself. the first part should be my heart and the second part should be my brain.

there are so many things i want to thank and apologise to her but. idk. i can't. i suck.

but i always know that there are always ppl more unfortunate than me. i rmb i learn the what phrase during chinese lesson. forgot la whatever.

anyways, stay happy guys. being happy ia about u and not the ppl around u. live life and enjoy life. ^^

byez.